Wednesday, March 31, 2010
i feel theres a change in me ... but i cant figure wat isit...wen tis feeling pop up i feel like disspre its soo diffcult for me to ting about tis it could be smting small niggling away to my subconcious or it could be smting BIG tat draging me to be like tis lately i feel its getting worst inside me i cant let it out..i cnt...it might hurt somone..anione...ive taken a little tyme for myslf infront the mirror to really ask myslf wats the issue making me feel tis way i try to close one eyes as i noe a better day waiting me n tats make me keep my head high n hang in their unfotuntely noting tat convince me tat i will met tat better day more worst the same ting happn again...metal problem ?? perhps not...i feel really bad about myslf i feel iam useless at everiting tis ting make me hate being around ppl even the close ones im not a vry nice person even im slefish attymes i hate it!..i wan to cry to let it out but i cnt...not only depress,blue,gloomy..dejected...but somhowe it feel a fiery anger wif no reason inside me =( i just want to go to bed and never wake up if i were to record my day its gonna disguise me like hell
even how many grey clouds are there to make the day dark the sun is still there shinning bright BUT i cnt see it ive been looking for it where can it be pls
